Bumps in the Road

I'm feeling much lighter this week. Last week I was doubting if becoming a teacher was what I really wanted to do. And that's not a good thing to be wondering about when you're tens of thousands of dollars in debt from student loans. But I think I was just nervous cause I'm getting to the final stages of becoming certified. And I'm worried about this stupid German test cause if I don't pass in October then I won't be able to student teach in January which will set me back a ways. Of course, it's Wayne State and so they probably wouldn't notice if I didn't pass.

And I hate being poor. Currently I have $5 a week to spend on groceries. Everything costs money and I don't have any. I have cavities that need to be taken care of and no dental insurance. That's several hundred dollars. I need a haircut. Raffi needs food. I have to pay $75 to retake the stupid German test. I don't have money to go out with friends and I barely have enough money to rent a video to watch by myself. My mother keeps telling me that it's just one more year and then I'll have a teaching job and an income. So I can start paying back all my debt. Yay.

Gah, now I'm depressed again. This post was supposed to be happy. Aside from the financial situation, I am happy and back on track. So smile for me. Smile!